I say that loud and proud now, but that wasn’t always the case. When my chronic illness story began over 15 years ago, I did not love my body. I despised it. I cringed at the fact that I didn’t know what was happening, that I had no answers to my symptoms, and I felt like a medical mystery no one could solve.
Fast-forward to today, and I have three diagnoses: chronic migraine, generalized anxiety disorder and depression.
All the doubts and questions flood your mind. “Are they the right one for me? How do I know this is the right decision? Are they going to break my heart? Are they going to be “the one?” Will this turn out to be a huge failure? Or will this be one of the best decisions of my life?” Every question is valid. Why? Because we are dealing with your heart here. We are dealing with the most fragile, complex, and beautiful part of who you are.
From angles to lighting to colors and to sizes, we view things from a very unique perspective. This also applies to how we see our body. I can’t even begin to tell you how many times I’ve scrolled through Instagram and marveled at how the light hit someone’s face just right to showcase their perfect skin, or at how the right angle, pose, and curve seemed to be accentuated perfectly.
This is something we hear from a very young age. Do you believe in this statement? I haven’t always been the best role model when it comes to loving my body, my features or my curvy waistline. My body image negativity started taking a dive during my teen years. In middle school, I felt out of place, awkward, sad, scared, disproportionate and overweight.
Six years ago, I was a HOT MESS! My life was in chaos. My MIND was in chaos. I was depressed, confused, and frustrated. I had no vision, no direction, and could NOT see my next steps. I was STUCK. I had no goals, and I felt defeated! During this time, my body began to change. My hair thinned dramatically, I lost 20 pounds (and trust me, it wasn’t cute y’all, I was skeletal!)
I’m Abigail, the owner and creative director at Abigail Dyer Design Studio. I currently reside in my hometown, Knoxville, Tennessee with my sweet husband Jacob and our adorable puppy (and the cutest, fluffiest studio assistant), Nala! My favorite days are spent working with creative, driven women who desperately want their business to look as stunning as their work!
As a little girl, I compared myself to my friends who were more outgoing, popular, stylish, and thinner. I was quiet and shy, and believed I would never measure up or be successful because of it. My self-loathing magnified when I hit puberty and started noticing changes in my body.
AS HUMAN BEINGS, WE TRY TO AVOID PAIN AT ALL COSTS.
We want to ace the class, but we don’t want to read and study. We want to land our dream job, but we don’t want to do the presentation. We want to create a successful online platform, but we don’t want to embrace slow progress. We want to raise children, but we don’t want to go through labor.
“You are not thin enough, tall enough, tan enough, your skin or hair isn’t flawless, your teeth could be whiter…” where is this invisible scale on which we measure ourselves? Honestly, it’s all around us. Of course, we hold ourselves to an impossible standard. This level of beauty is distributed to us daily.
Hi! My Name is Christiana and I am a Christian/Lifestyle blogger. I am terrible at making lists of any kind, and I am kind of spontaneous. My dream is to travel the world while creating content, blogging, and perhaps start a YouTube channel someday. I never attended college after high school, instead, I started my own small business selling T-Shirts. I called my business Chris-Tees (kind of a play off my name) and I still sell T-Shirts to this day!